Left lower eyelid

Pix taken Thurs 27 June 06 - 3 weeks 3 days post op
Those dark lines on my lowers are the incision lines and there's a small bump on the lower right eyelid and you can see the left lower lump a bit more in this pix on the lower left eyelid and strangely both lowers look hollow in this pix, more so though in the right than left (probably cos the left lump makes it look hollow(?)

I have started massaging my left lower outer eyelid, where the lump and lower left eyelid retraction is and ooooiiieee, it's all lumpy and bumpy inside whereas there are no lumps and bumps and excess skin on my right lower (I wonder if Jane took out more skin on my right lower which is why there is no excess skin there and there is on my left lower?). These are all questions I must remember to write down and ask Jane when I see her next.

Each day is different and some days I'm upset about my right lower hollow and some days I'm too busy to be upset or even look and/or upset about the two cystic acne on my right cheek which now has seemingly turned into an infection and my whole right cheek is swollen (I look like a chipmunk) with two cysts sticking out ... it looks horrible and is very soul destroying and I'm hiding at home until it heals and hopefully it will by Monday when I'll have no choice but to return to work.

When I do return to work on Monday, because I've said I've keratitis / eye infection etc, everyone will be focusing on my eyes and asking how I am as they always do and I wish I could be invisible sometimes at work though as one banker said this week, I'm like the engine room where everything takes place and works in the team, and everyone comes to me when they need anything and when I was gone, everyone and everything was put on hold until I came back and everyone was so relieved to have me back. One of the bankers (Director) shrieked my name when she saw me sitting at my desk at 8am in the morning on my first day back! When I'm trying to keep a low profile cos of my eyes and how they feel ie swollen and throbbing, having to look up (as I'm sitting down) at people standing up talking to me is hard word, especially looking up at bright lights and thinking inside my head, "Oh dear, I wonder if they can see my scars or can they notice that I've had eye surgery etc etc", though it's not as bad as when I had to go back to work in December after my brow lift when I was wearing the wig ... oh dear - that was probably the worst ever experience of my life!!

So the engine room is where I work in the office as a secretary, where everything happens (smiles) and everything is on hold while I am away and I reminded the bankers to be appreciative of me in light of the fact they missed me so much thou most of the younger bankers do, it's just my top banker, ie a managing director and group head, tends to take me for granted and expect 200% when I give 150% - and my 10 hour days are just not enough for him - he expects 12 hour days and more! Bah! With him, I feel like a wife who's done hard work all day at home with the kids and he strolls in after his hard day at work, sees a little clutter on the floor and demands to know what his wife has been doing all day cos her work can't be as hard compared to his! Arrrghhh!! (grins).