Noticeable changes are now slowing down, which is the norm, in my eyes and brow.
At work, more people are bumping into me and looking straight at the hair which everyone seems to like, and it looks like mine, and I'm getting only positive comments about how it's wonderful to see my hair down instead of up (it used to be up cos I hadn't the time to wash it everyday and would only wear it down once a week approx). It was time consuming to wash and straighten my hair in the mornings which would take 20 mins or so of my time.
The wig is a safety net as I feel I can hide behind it safely while my head and eyes heal. My incision scars are still very noticeable and my hair is still thinned in the incision areas (sighs). I'm hoping in another 6 weeks' time, there's be some hair growth and some form of returning to normality as it'd then be 3 months post surgery. That'd be around the beginning of March 2006. I feel I have more confidence and can smile and look people straight in the eyes when they talk to me, whereas before after a few secs, I'd look away as I'd feel self conscious and/or cos they'd feel self conscious as they'd be looking at my left eye bump and lower eyelid retraction and rubbing/flicking away at their own eye. That hasn't happened at all thankfully and no one seemingly has looked into my eyes, none that I can tell, as I look natural (within reason).
Maybe the odd one or two suspect plastic surgery and/or a wig, like I do with one of the girls in the office, but I personally let it go and think if she has had chemo etc, I hope she heals soon and well.
Two more are back in the office tomorrow, one of the other secs and one banker who sits behind me. He just had a baby girl and hopefully his attention will be elsewhere rather than me. Now that Celebrity Big Brother is on, the girls' attention seems to be on gossiping about the celebrities which is great as it takes away the focus thankfully from me. I do feel frustrated by their constant chatter ... though that's part and parcel of working in an open plan.
I watched Memoirs of a Geisha on Friday and that movie certainly left me feel inspired afterwards :). It's a movie which gives hope amidst the struggles of life.
I do wish at times I could have the extensions already so that I don't have to wear the wig; though I can't afford it right now and it'd be too drastic a change to have others see me wearing a wig which is burgundy in colour with highlights and a fringe and then all of a sudden seeing me with extensions ... though I may try to imitate the wig as much as I can including having a fringe as I understand that a fringe is possible using that hair saloon which specialises in hair extensions and hair loss.
Have taken pictures and will post them shortly. It'll be my 6 week mark tomorrow 19th Jan 06.
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