Day 37 post surgery : Weds 11th Jan 2006

I'm still getting double looks on my hair (thankfully none on my eyes) and some comments that I look like a completely different person (then again I saw one guy today who'd cut his hair really short and he looked completely different) so it's fairly norm I guess. I'm very thankful for my wig and that it looks very much like my own hair; though I'm wishing my own hair would hurry up and heal itself and grow back properly. I can't wait to get my hair extensions in nearer June/July and to have my lowers done.

I'm still worried about my left upper eyelid in that now I'm finding the left upper eyelashes don't stay up as long as the right upper eyelashes - at the end of the day the left upper eyelashes flop whereas the right upper eyelashes are as bright as ever. There's also a little bit of excess skin on the left upper eyelid and the crease isn't the same as the right upper eyelid though it really is early days yet and it's too early to worry -- though I am only cos this just reminds me of what happened with the butcher surgeon last year and it's bringing back bad memories of an eye that looks half asleep. I look at myself in the mirror when I'm putting on my make up and my left eye now is beginning to look like it did before, ie droopy and sleepy and I'm having to make an effort to raise it, like before when it drooped. I'm just wondering whether I'm just noticing different things .... it's hard to tell. I'll need to look back at the video footage I've taken. I really do hope it's nothing as otherwise Jane will have to fix it -- hopefully during the lowers if it's a minor fix.

Head hurt today wearing the wig .... in some of the incision areas - or rather it was sore. Can't wait for my hair to grow back per normal and for me to be able to afford to have extensions put in to thicken my hair and perhaps have a fringe.

I didn't feel so well at work today. Just when I think I'd like to start working out again, whoosh, a wave of ikky feeling comes over me and I feel nauseaus. As I have low blood pressure, I need to take it easy and not overdo things. Bah, frustrating. Perhaps I'll start over the weekend.