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More people returned to work today and the reactions were similar to that of yesterday, though with some saying I looked completely different with the hairstyle, like I was another person. Hmmm. I wasn't too sure what to make of that. I just said that my best friend's daughter was a hairdresser and had done my hair as a x'mas pressie. I wonder whether some think it's a wig(?) but aren't too sure as it does look different as my hair is normally thin and the wig is thick.
One of the female directors came up to me in the ladies and said she liked my new hair and touched the ends - I wonder if she was touching it to see if it was real or false. I guess I'll never know.
I do feel more confident as I can hide my eyes behind my fringe and even when not wearing glasses I feel I can look people in the eye without looking away like I used to. I'm not sure where this confidence is coming from - though it's there, inbuilt all of a sudden.
At times when I'm adjusting my wig in the ladies, I'll part my fringe a little to the side and instantly I look different and my eyes are very obvious where the eyelid creases are and eeek, I go and cover them up as even I am not used to that look yet. It doesn't quite feel finished meaning I feel the eyelids can still come down a bit to look a bit more natural crease wise. It still overwhelms me at times in different lights and different conditions.
I did mention to a couple of the guys that I was wearing my ReliefBand to help relieve the nausea and oh, they immediately felt guilty and I wonder whether this particular guy thought I was having chemo hence feeling sick; and hence why perhaps I was wearing a wig (if he thought it was a wig?). I guess I'll never know as I can't ask. (sighs).
I still have to bump into more people as not everyone is back at work yet and there's more I haven't bumped into in the corridor.
Waking up in the mornings still feels weird as my head feels wooden and my eyes feel like they don't belong to me either. I wake sometimes thinking if I could, would I do this again and I'm not sure. I don't like having thinning patches and not being able to be mysel and having a wooden head. When this browlift drops completely in 8 years or so, I'll be 49 .... never say never is my motto though how many brow lifts can my head take? I dunno .... maybe this is enough ... it's a lot of money.
My upper eyelid incisions itched today at work .... arrrrgh. They still look crusty to me.
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
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