Photos

Okay, have been able to post some pictures but it won't let me post Days 1-4 which is frustrating or anything else. I'll try on another thread.

Today is Day 12 post surgery, Sat 17th June 06 and I took some photos with the flash on and I was alarmed as well as disappointed to note that the left lower eyelid was drooping more than I thought it was. There's no way it's going to pop back up again. It was doing so well a week post surgery at Day 5 and now 2 weeks post surgery, the left lower lid is beginning to drop.

It's ok, I've accepted that the surgery was partially successful and that I'll most likely need another reconstructive surgery at some point especially as my lower left eyelid lump is beginning to show up again and also my right lower eyelid looks hollow and is very different compared to my left lower eyelid; plus when I smile and/or talk, you can see the lump per before (that Jane pointed out). I did take photos but blogger isn't accepting any more photos right now.

My left lower eyelid is beginning to feel the effects of the wind again ie that feeling where the wind blows on your face and my left lower eye feels dry and tickly. A sign that the lower lid is retracted as my right lower eyelid feels fine.

If I do anything too much at home, ie like bend to sweep the carpet or fit a plug or plug a socket into the DVD recorder etc, my eyeballs tend to feel swollen and I have to stop. It's frustrating as I'm limited in what I can do at home and I feel like I'm wasting such valuable time. When I do do anything, I have to be extra careful not to strain.

I'm just concerned now about how I'll look when I return to work week after next ie on Tues 27th and I hope that my eyes will be fine and no one will notice at work. One of my bosses' suspected that I may be going in for surgery as I was taking such a long time off but I managed to convince him I was taking the full time for a yoga workshop which is true, but only the latter part of my leave.

I hope so much that when I return to work, I'll be able to transfer to another team as my time is definitely up in my current team. I want to leave there and move on somewhere else - to new ventures and to people that won't stare and whom won't gossip and start afresh.

Day 5 post surgery - Sat 10th June 06
Lower left lid in good high position still

Day 6 post surgery - Sun 11th June 06


Day 7 post surgery - Mon 12th June 06

Day 8 post surgery - Tue 13th June 06
Some signs of lower eyelid retraction beginning to appear

;">Day 12 post surgery - Sat 17th June 06
With flash - the left lower eyelid droop is more obvious with the flash on

Day 12 post surgery - Sat 17th June 06
Stitches still in, right lower eyelid hollow and left lower eyelid starting to droop plus left lower eyelid lump reappearing