I must make more of an effort to get 8-9 hours sleep a day during the working week to heal as currently I'm getting 6-7 in spite of trying (there's always something that needs taking care of) and on the weekends my body begs to catch up on the healing sleep needed.
Not too many changes happening of late and healing is now at a steady pace. My dry eyes are not as dry as they were in that I am no longer (touch wood) suffering from secondary tearing; though I do wake with blurry eyesight and eyes that feel dry; though they do not automatically tear while I sleep - that is when it gets really painful and uncomfortable. I think by about the fourth and a half week mark it started to get better and I can now tolerate more warmth in the house and can turn the central heating up at home.
At work, they gave me a convector heater which I use either under my desk or by the side of me and hot air rises up and this causes my eyes to dry out incredibly. I'm resorting to putting some water on the floor by the heater hoping this will help. I put a carrot out on my desk the other day and by the end of the day it has shrivelled up! I should try to invent something that I can hook directly to the heater and add water to it constantly so that the atmosphere is more moist and will help with my eyes. They do sell them though I'd rather invent something that won't get damaged by the heat.
My head feels fine, apart from feeling wooden, Y-V scars are still there. I was parting my hair the other day and could see the continuation of the Y-V incisions and will try to take a picture at some point and share here for the records. Thankfully no itchiness or energy bolts shooting across my head :)
It only takes one to throw a pebble into the water to cause a ripple and I feel the tension in MMH by the odd few who are inexperienced in life and know nothing else than to judge others; reactions of which are based on their own life experiences and how they've been treated and is learned behaviour from their parents. I'm not a practicising Christian though one verse that popped out at me was "Forgive them father, as they know not what they are doing or saying". Some mean well with the advice that they give, unsolicited as it is. Meditate, breathe and let it go.
My blog is for me to record my personal experience of my healing journey for me to reflect back on in times ahead of how far I've come; and hopefully it'll help some others out there, and it's also for me to catharthise as journalling is healing. Some from MMH seem to have browsed my blog, made hasty judgements or taken some personal insights from my sharings and decided to make their own judgements and criticisms. Forgive them father, for they know nought what they are doing/saying.
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