Day 25 post surgery - 30 Dec 05 - pix taken with no flash and smiling to show flabby areas under lower eyelids and the lump on left eyelid.
Day 25 post surgery - 30 Dec 05 - pix taken with no flash. Upper eyelids are still swollen and crusty looking.
Day 25 post surgery - 30 Dec 05 - pix taken with no flash. My uppers are still swollen and my left eyelid doesn't shut properly due to the lower eyelid retraction; same with the right lower eyelid retraction (smaller).
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Having been fired up last nite from my tel con with my friend about my eyes, something snapped inside me today as I went to the supermarket to get some pineapples. The security guard in the store kept following me around and this has been happening in various stores and I just had enough and completely out of character, something inside me fired up, I walked up to him, tapped him on the shoulder and told him that as a shopper, it felt very intimidating and harassing to have a security guard follow me, a shopper around, and that he could perhaps do a better job by doing his job and being invisible, so that I wouldn't feel harassed when shopping as I felt like walking out and very uncomfortable when everywhere I went, there he was, following me around (screams).
I was on automatic pilot and it's completely out of character as I'm a Type 9 on the Enneagram http://www.enneagraminstitute.com and we don't like confrontation at all and like a peaceful life at all times. Anyway I think he was a little taken aback but he handled it really well and he started talking to me about how he had to follow people around as there were certain aisles that were hot targets and told me that as we spoke there was a couple in the alcohol section that were planning to steal; and took me there to show me. I looked at what he showed me but didn't see anything out of the ordinary and he continued to explain that they had put a bottle of very expensive whisky in their basket which they could not afford; and then got me to follow him and showed me how there were asking for directions from a member of staff to a blind area where he said they were planning on removing the security tag and walking out the shop after paying for their normal groceries etc. Very intriguing.
I said I'm sure his job was difficult as I wouldn't like confronting someone who was on drugs or an addict and walking out stealing. After a while he started talking about me personally, digging for info if I had kids, lived alone etc and said maybe he could come round and keep me company. Ahhh, thanks but I don't think so. :) Hmm, I just thought he was fairly youngish and good looking and perhaps I could see that as a compliment (smiles) re my new eyes and look :) It was flattering and I did leave the supermarket with a smile.
And I learnt something from my fiery conversation with my friend last night.
I also learnt that she was projecting her fears on to me when she spoke about my surgeries and so was my best friend, who is scared of needles and any operations and is a very bad patient. Geez, I should know this as I've done the Hoffman Process http://hoffmaninstitute.com/ ... I guess I forgot temporarily and this is a reminder. Then again she did the Process too. That's where we met; so I thought she'd have known better; though not everyone who's done the Process heals all their childhood wounds.
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