Well I survived today, without dying, like I thought I would! I was feeling extremely nervous especially when walking into the building and my floor. The first person in my team who saw me, had only been here a few weeks and only seen me for 3 days before I went on my surgery and he didn't seem to notice anything different about me.
The second fellow worker who walked in said good morning, good to have me back and that was that. A few other fellow workers in my team (male) said hi, good to see me and just carried on talking like nothing had happened; and strangely none of the guys mentioned my hair (grins). That was the biggest thing that worried me, apart from my eyes. One girl in the ladies said she liked my hair and said she liked the fringe and carried on talking. I pinned my hair up to the sides to make it look thinner and more "me" and I think people really thought it was my own hair, and that I'd had a fringe cut. Awesome! Though I only saw a handful of people today and there's more to come.
One of the female managers was in the ladies and she made a specific point about looking into my eyes as I walked past but my fringe was in the way as were my glasses and she couldn't quite tell.
So all in all, I'm a little bemused by today, ie if they think my wig is natural (grins) which actually even sometimes I think it's natural when I tweak it right.
Another boss may be in tomorrow and I'll be bumping into more people over the next few days and having a ground hog day :)
As I hadn't slept all night, I left at 2.30pm. Prior to me leaving, one of my bosses who was in the US on hols, called me and told me my bonus figure for the year and also my pay rise. He said I had achieved the highest bonus in all of my floor (wahooo!), and that I was the top scoring assistant who was above her peers (wow!). This is awesome and such an honour as in the ten years I've been at the firm, this is the first time, I've done well ie no bully bosses giving me bad reviews cos I won't succumb to their bullying (this happens a lot in the investment banking industry - ie bullying bosses). I was really thrilled as it'll help so much towards payment of my surgery bills and the pay rise will help increase my overtime monies (yeah!). (smiles)
I didn't wear eye make up today and I looked at a stranger in the mirror in the ladies. I'm not sure if I prefer myself with eye make up or without. I think I'll stick to without for a while.
Now that the red has gone in my left eye, I notice the lower eyelid retraction so much and as I was using my eyes all day at work, somehow the lump seems to get bigger and more noticeable and I am feeling upset at the way I look again cos the difference is now very noticeable again especially when I smile nd when I talk.
My wig hurt a lot at work today. I think it could be cos of the netting. I originally thought perhaps the wig was too tight but my best friend said that it could be the netting. I'm not evens ure if I should be using netting on my head right now if it makes or contributes to swelling. Once I got home and took my wig off, it felt heavenly to massage my scalp --- oooooh!
I can hardly keep my eyes open - must get some sleep; and I'll share on the MMH board tomorrow guys; unless I wake early in the morning before work and do my replies then :).
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