A close up of the staples in the shape of Y-V in my head. It was difficult for me to get a good shot with my own hand and moving my hair at the same time. This is one of the best I could do.
Thread at Make Me Heal Forum : http://www.makemeheal.com/messageboards/viewtopic.php?t=122
My eyes were watering a lot this morning when sleeping. I think that my eyes didn't start watering until now is because before I was only sleeping 3-4 hours and that was interrupted sleep, with me waking up constantly to go to the bathroom, and now that my medication schedule has stopped, I'm able to stay in bed longer and sleep uninterrupted, and my eyes are starting that watering/tearing process that Jane was mentioning. I think she was a little surprised this week when I said that my eyes hadn't watered! The watering is now in both eyes. I hope this isn't a permanent thing and is only temporary as the whole point of having the upper and lower eyelid reconstruction was to heal the lagophthalmos (eyes that do not shut). It's probably a question of time and maybe won't be fully corrected until the lower eyelid reconstruction can take place.
Recuperation is very boring and repetitious. My vision is somewhat blurry still and my upper eyelids are somewhat immobilised (the endoscope (if that was the instrument used) was inserted through the upper eyelid incision lines). The sides of my forehead are a little numb, and this is where the endoscope (or whatever instrument was used) was poking around :). I look at my before and after photos and wow, I'm still amazed at the difference. I looked fairly tired and haggard before. I'm still adjusting and getting used to my new high eyebrows.
I am seriously considering getting permanent brow make up on as my eyebrows are a little on the thin side and it'd be nice to complete the final touches of the brow lift with nice eyebrows :). There are a couple of places in Harley Street - Deborah Robson Lawrence http://www.permanent-makeup.com/semi-permanent-make-up-treatments-brows.html and Dawn Craig http://www.dawncragg.com/treatments/introduction.html. I had a response from a query to Deborah Robson Lawrence, whom I've seen on tv before where she did the eyebrows of someone whom I think, if my memory serves me right, had them singed off or had an injury or something. It was a he, and I'm not sure if I was too impressed with it as it looked drawn on. Years ago I had a lump removed from my left breast and the incision line has always remained as a reminder on the Areola and I note that both the above places do Areola tatoos to put back what is missing - I wonder if they can do that for the scar which is a long thin white line - I'm sure they can ... that's food for thought :) after living with this for several years and hating the site of the scar every day and being reminded of it. I can finally let that go!
Am taking photos daily and will post them later tonite ... staying too long on the PC makes my eyes dry out and i need to keep blinking though that doesn't seem to do much with the blurry vision - it comes and goes.
My head hurt last nite where the incisions / staples were and in the areas where there is black thread. It felt very uncomfortable so today I've resumed my normal pain medication to 4 times a day instead of whenever I felt like it eg twice a day. It's made a big difference.
I was due to return to work tomorrow, 19th December, though have gotten another week's medical leave off work. If I did go back, I personally don't think I'm in a fit enough condition to drive as I can't look up properly nor move my eyes in my eye sockets without discomfort and my reactions are slow, so driving to and from work isn't safe; and I don't think I could take 8 hours in a dry atmosphere at work, especially with my low blood pressure.
I have put on some weight in these past 2 weeks (geez), and I'm hoping when I return to work and my normal schedule, it'll all come off again easily. It's easy to put on weight when all one does is eat and sleep and watch tv :) I've put on about 6 pounds I think - arrrrghhh!! Also I can't exercise (not that I have properly for a while) as I can't bend down.
I may have mentioned this before regards heating in that since my surgery, I can't seem to bear the heat anymore which is really unusual as I normally like a nice warm house with the central heating full on, though lately and even in the hospital, I prefer a nice cool room with the heating off. So strange. Hormonal perhaps? On Day 1 or 2 at the hospital, one of the nurses came into my room and claimed how cold it was in my room and proceeded to turn the heating on and strangely enough I had been sweating and hadn't notice how cold the room was. My kitties feel the cold in the house as they don't lay stretched out like they do when it's warm and instead crouch like animals do when it's cold. My eyes can't take it when it's too hot .... it's very strange. I wonder how long it'll last.
I had ordered The Waltons: The Complete Series http://www.amazon.co.uk/exec/obidos/ASIN/B0007LBM2C/026-4095649-8846868?%5Fencoding=UTF8 which arrived yesterday. It was a wonderful change to be able to watch the Waltons, which I grew up to (didn't we all?!) in the 70s, and brought back a lot of old memories, feelings and nostalgia..
No comments:
Post a Comment