6 weeks post surgery - taken 21 Jan 06 - Y-V incision area - still has bald patch.
Taken 19 Jan 06, 6 weeks post surgery - the left upper eyelid has a crinkly look due to too much fat being removed from original bleph by butcher surgeon in Dec 04.
I have been somewhat busy and haven't had time to post.
This whole week the other assistant in the team has spent a lot of time staring at me and it really bothers me as it's given me a complex, thinking that geez my hair is out of place or I look horrible etc even though she has been giving me lots of compliments ie like I look good, she likes my hair colour, my face looks fatter etc - though she did question why my hair looked different to which I replied my hair condition had changed cos of the steriods I'd been on.
I'm not sure if she's staring cos she's admiring me and/or if she's trying to figure out what's different about me just to satisfy her own curiousity and she's very inquisitive. My left lower eyelid still droops so if she thinks I've had plastic surgery then she'll be wondering hmm, how come I didn't fix my lower eyelid etc. I give up as I've no idea what's on her mind and what's she's thinking though wish she'd stop darn staring at me as I find it rude.
She'll continue to ask questions though I'm half prepared with answers ie "There'll be nothing more to be mysterious about if I answer your questions etc".
An assistant who's off on maternity leave is scheduled to return to our team on 1st March and L may need to leave our team. I do hope so as it'll stop all the questions and stares. The other assistant will mind her own business as she will just want to get on with her work. She may be curious but she'll be too polite to ask etc.
I washed my hair yesterday and blow dried it for the first time in weeks and it's looking good. The bald areas are still there though looking much better and my hairline isn't as high (whew) and I went to Bluewater with my hair down (normal hair and not the wig) and I felt ok; though I was wearing a winter hat to cover the bald patch; though I did center part my hair which covered up the bald patch.
Jane copied me in on a letter to my doctor which advised that my left upper eyelid has crinkly skin due to too much fat being removed from my original bleph from that butcher surgeon. She may consider doing some fat transfer during my lower bleph surgery in July. I had no idea that the original surgeon had removed fat in my uppers as he never mentioned this during the consult.
Jane also says "the eyelid shape is very good and the palpebral apertures asymmetrical because of the left lower lid sag. She does have lagophtalmos of right 2mm and left approx 4 mm but with a good Bell's phenomena".
I ordered Nourkrin yesterday and hope that in 4-8 weeks from now I'll start to see improvements in my thin hair and also the bald patches improving. Jane thinks it'll improve anyway on my own though as my hair is naturally fine, I'd like to add some volume and the hairdresser I saw the other day did recommend Nourkrin. I'm happy that the supplement which is from shark is natural and happy to experiment for 6 months to see what results I'll have. If Cheryl Baker can change her pony tail to fit a 5p piece to a 10p piece, I'll have some of that as my pony tail is about the same (smiles).
I've been looking at pictures of Tyra Banks on her website and noticing her wig styles and feel better about my own wig (whew). Tyra also has a high hairline and that makes me feel better too about mine though I'm not too keen on my thin hair; hence why taking Nourkrin. My hair is getting thicker as it is slowly recovering from the damage from the chemicals used to wash my hair during my brow lift. There is quite a difference in my hair quality now than a few weeks ago. My hair is still thin but it's much better. Whew.
I'm getting stares here and there from guys all over the place. B in the office was talking to me from across the room the other day and when he finished his sentence, he just stared at me like he was seeing something he'd never seen before. I thought he was noticing my wig was a wig and staring at my wig cos I couldn't imagine what else he'd be staring at, and that he was too polite to say anything.
I went to the canteen this week and as I walked up to the salad bar, a cute guy did a double take when he saw me and again I thought it was cos he noticed my wig was a wig and cringed inside and thought geez, did I do something wrong, is something in my wig showing and/or obvious etc? Thou if that was the case, surely everyone in the canteen would look at me funny? I dunno. Cos I feel so insecure inside it's hard to imagine these guys are looking at me cos I look good.
The other day I was walking to the Mall (at work) and when I passed a cute guy who was smoking with another, he too did a double take and I again thought the same thing ie arrgh, my wig is obvious and he's looking at my wig and thinking errgh what a silly girl to wear a wig. The wind was blowing my hair and I thought my fringe area of the wig was showing (as the wig hairline is very obvious to see that it's a wig). I couldn't fathom he was looking at me cos I look good again cos I don't feel it. (sighs).
If I do look good and these guys are doing double takes cos I look good, errr, I'm not sure ... that's hard to sink in right now cos my journey isn't over yet. It's easier for me to think they're looking at my wig and curious as to why someone like me would wear a wig and doing double takes cos of that.
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